Diary Extracts
Following my post last post (https://cheesecakeinator.blogspot.com/2019/07/how-far-ive-come.html) about how my diaries have changed over the years I thought I would share some extracts from my diaries with you.
TRIGGER WARNINGS: Depression, mentions of suicide and self harm.
I only went through one of my old diaries which happened to be April to December 2016 and a lot of it I had to skip. However, I was in a place where I thought things would and could never change, yet my most recent entries have been so much happier and I'm currently living a life I thought was impossible.
It's now filled with my adventures, my performing, my friends and my happiness. Yes, there are still bad days, but I just want to prove to you that it WILL get better. Even if you can't see that right now, there will be a day when it all changes.
Please, please talk to somebody in your life if you are struggling to cope or if you can't, maybe write to a piece of paper to help get your thoughts straight.
All my love <3
IF YOU RELATE TO THE THINGS I'VE MENTIONED HERE ARE SOME LINKS TO PLACES THAT CAN HELP (uk mainly but wherever you are there are people that can help):
SAMARITANS: Suicide Helpline
https://www.samaritans.org/ Or Call: 116 123
NHS 111: Non-emergency Medical Help. MENTAL ILLNESSES ARE JUST AS WORTHY AND DO NOT BE ASHAMED TO CALL FOR MENTAL HEALTH REASONS (i have before)
https://111.nhs.uk/ Or Call: 111
MIND: Mental Health Charity - full of helpful information on anything from classifications to living with a mental health disorder
https://www.mind.org.uk/
I intend to in the future compile a list of helplines, I would appreciate knowing any that have helped you and that might be able to help others.
TRIGGER WARNINGS: Depression, mentions of suicide and self harm.
I only went through one of my old diaries which happened to be April to December 2016 and a lot of it I had to skip. However, I was in a place where I thought things would and could never change, yet my most recent entries have been so much happier and I'm currently living a life I thought was impossible.
Honestly I can't even read this page so I don't know what it says (I'm sorry if its offensive or anything...) but I was in such a bad place I couldn't even write properly, a lot of pages of my old diaries look like this.
HOWEVER
Now it is different. Here's some diary extracts from the last few months:
It's now filled with my adventures, my performing, my friends and my happiness. Yes, there are still bad days, but I just want to prove to you that it WILL get better. Even if you can't see that right now, there will be a day when it all changes.
Please, please talk to somebody in your life if you are struggling to cope or if you can't, maybe write to a piece of paper to help get your thoughts straight.
All my love <3
IF YOU RELATE TO THE THINGS I'VE MENTIONED HERE ARE SOME LINKS TO PLACES THAT CAN HELP (uk mainly but wherever you are there are people that can help):
SAMARITANS: Suicide Helpline
https://www.samaritans.org/ Or Call: 116 123
NHS 111: Non-emergency Medical Help. MENTAL ILLNESSES ARE JUST AS WORTHY AND DO NOT BE ASHAMED TO CALL FOR MENTAL HEALTH REASONS (i have before)
https://111.nhs.uk/ Or Call: 111
MIND: Mental Health Charity - full of helpful information on anything from classifications to living with a mental health disorder
https://www.mind.org.uk/
I intend to in the future compile a list of helplines, I would appreciate knowing any that have helped you and that might be able to help others.